Letter #2. Pain. 

I see you. I am here, I am near. Hear Me, feel Me. I orchestrated history and creation, every day before and after your birth, just for you to remember Me again. To remind you that you are not an accident. You are My beloved, My absolute intention.  

I want to be by your side, to be heard and seen by you. I want to heal your pain, to leave it in the past. Every second after our last talk, after our last look, every second after that I saw how the world I created is being destroyed.

I didn’t close My eyes. Not for a moment. I saw everything. I saw the first time you met with emptiness and numbness. I saw the first time you felt loneliness around those you call family. The first time you got angry and learned tears of powerlessness. I saw everything. I felt everything with you. You forgot the real Me. You forgot – you have feelings because I made you in My image. I feel everything. I felt pain when you were envious for the first time. When you compared and decided that I created you imperfectly. When you started to doubt Me… Am I not deserving of your trust..?

I remember the dark day you turned away from My care. You hid your eyes. You forgot about Me from the very first second. And from the very first second I started missing you. 

Every time you fell down, I was longing to hold you and touch your wounds. And every time you were pushing Me away. You didn’t trust Me. Blindly and stubbornly you tried to be an enemy to Me, you were so sure you only deserved punishment, shame and hatred. I tried to remind you that you are still valuable to Me, still desired and beloved. My heart didn’t change. It is still broken for you…

I am coming to you because I want this pain to leave your life. I want you to remember who you are, Who I am and who we are together – you and I.

I love you. So much…

                                                                                                                                        Abba

Letter #1. First Love. 

I remember very well the day you came to this world. That was Me, Me personally Who created you with My own hands. I breathed My life into every fibre of your being. I fulfilled your soul with the wind of Mine. I gave you palms which keep warmth inside and eyes which notice beauty of My creations. Creations I gave you power over them and you found a name for each of them. I trusted you care for everything I had created for you. I wanted you to thoughtfully reign over animals and nature around. And I was so much in love with the way you had been doing it… 
 

I didn’t want you to be alone. I knew your dream and I breathed life into her. She is your flesh and your inspiration. Your family. I hid My tenderness into her. I taught her how to take care of you. I asked you to protect her. To love her. To love her the way I love you. I told you about unity and harmony. You could feel them in being with Me and her. Her, your only one for entire life.

Your excitement had been bringing me so much joy. I smiled every time you would close your eyes to enjoy sunlight on your face. I remember the moment we were dying laughing at your first joke. I remember peaceful and beautiful dreams you’d been watching them every night. I remember our walks through the garden (I made it specifically for you). I was interested in every thought you gave it to Me, every small thing you noticed around. You could recognize Me and My handwriting. You loved to create because I created you by My image. You are My very best creation. I wanted you to remember it. Every day of your life.

Your every word, every action, every look was a reflection of My love. I created you for this. Our talks were sank in correlation and we talked about the whole universe. You were not afraid of me. No, you had called Me your Friend and rested in My presence. You wanted to be next to Me every moment. You were amazed by Me and the way I made you. There was no end for your questions. I loved to answer all of them. I enjoyed how perfect and whole you were. I enjoyed your pure eyes, I could see all of your soul in them.

Yes, I gave you a soul that needs Me. The soul that becomes thirsty when I am not around. The soul to remind you: you were meant for eternity. I created you to give you love and care. There was nothing else which made Me smile so sincere as time we had spent together.

I miss you…

                                                                                                                                          God

колискова

шепіт вечірній

світлом настільним

сумом натільним

дихає вільно

 

а колискова

зимньо-казкова

словом малює

усе, що почує

 

тихо на стінах

колишуться тіні

чорним і срібним

щоб спалося мирно

 

спи…